Going back to work after the holidays is harder than expected. We want to start a family but theres a lot of risks associated with getting pregnant on my current epilepsy medication. I've got an appointment at the end of October with the epilepsy clinic to see what my options are with regard to changing my medication and I've already started taking the pre pregnancy vitamins the GP prescribed. The issue is going back to work after the summer. Being surrounded by happy families and staff that have just come back from maternity leave and are constantly sharing pictures and funny stories of their little ones. I don't want to take away from there experience but it's a constant reminder that I may need to have seizures, strange new side affects and uncertainty while I get myself ready for pregnancy. It's not helped by a lot of staff starting conversations with "you've got a husband and a house now. When are you going to have a baby?" Or giving me nudges and saying "you'll be next" any time babies are mentioned. I'm broody I want kids and I feel I'm as ready as I'll ever be but it's terrifying.
. Had a really awful day yesterday. But slightly better today. Managed to sit in a chair for about 10 minutes which is big progress for me right now. And in a bit less pain so I'm in a better mood. Any small wins!
