Hope this isn’t too much of a downer or a change of tune for anyone, but I just read over Wiebke’s absolutely incredible guide for end of life care and a terminally ill piggy. It’s kind of an unspoken feeling I know me and my vet share that Bea probably won’t get any better. She wants to eat, she wants to have a little nibble of hay and a few nuggets, but she’s starting to head over to corners of the cage hunched over, won’t come out when I rustle the nugget or hay bags and is just constantly being force fed medicine and critical care.
Her health has been declining for about 4 months now and a combined bloat condition and uri is not a pleasant combination. I have fought for months and so has she and when that little brightness comes back for a few days, it often will go again very quickly. I’m starting to consider my options and be a bit more realistic. I’m going to call my vet tonight and ask him his opinion on her long term. She’s on day 6 of Baytril and that does seem to be upsetting her stomach, as does the large dose of medicines. I’m just desperate to hold out until the end of the course just for a little smidge of hope she may pull through, but just looking at her I can see she’s clearly in a lot of discomfort.
I’m very torn about what my next steps are, I want to keep going with these meds and wait and see wait and see wait and see. But I know Bea for being this larger than life hyperactive girl and I can see she’s not really there anymore.
I think for now, I’ll finish the course of antibiotics and see how she is after that and then go from
there.
As an anxious person, it can help having a definite end result, so reading Wiebke’s thread really made me think a bit more straightforwardly than I have been, clouded in my emotions and I’m starting to consider it what I am doing is best for her, or best for me.
This whole experience has also made me realise that the whole notion of a pet ‘being’ for a human is very misleading. These animals don’t solely exist for us I believe, whilst we obviously do get joy from their lives, we exist for them, to provide them with a wonderful life. I feel like it may be time to say goodbye to Bea soon, and accepting that is really helping. I’ll keep you all updated this evening. If you have any other suggestions please let me know