Thank you.
It was particularly hard when Nancy was upset. But she suddenly decided things are fine now, which makes me feel a lot less sad. She is wanting a lot of extra attention. I'm normally out for about 12 hours on a Thursday. Managed to come home couple of hours earlier because I didn't want Nancy to be alone all day. I do want a friend for Nancy, I'm waiting to hear about one. But I'm relieved she is doing okay now.
I have been less sad today. I have grieved for Pumpkin multiple times this year. We've had some very close calls. I have a blanket from ASDA that looks a bit like Nancy and Pumpkin together. At the vets I had Pumpkin wrapped in it while I was saying goodbye. So been sleeping hugging it. Sounds weird but brings me comfort. Miss Pumpkin hugs. Nancy doesn't do hugs, so got to respect that.
I know I did the right thing for Pumpkin, sometimes feel a slight amount of guilt that I 'gave up on her' when I haven't given up on Nancy's issues. But it is a different situation. Pumpkin kept needing operations and her bladder was not likely fixable.