Gentle George passed at 8 on Sunday morning. I didn't think I had any more tears in me but I could cry for ever.
Despite the Emeprid and syringe food his gut slowed more and more until by Friday he seemed unable to chew properly and didn't want to eat. He had a little go at some favourite cabbage but the pieces fell from his mouth. He ignored the grass and seemed to be having bouts of discomfort - perhaps cramping guts, I don't know. He was better in the afternoon. Friday evening he groaned a little but settled with his metacam, gabapentin and heatpad. Saturday the pain seemed to have stopped but I think so had his gut. He just stayed in his snuggle tunnel all day getting weaker. He could still drink from his little syringe, and was still keen for metacam. Saturday morning I pounded grass from the pile in a little water so he got a flavour of grass-time at least, and he drank 5 or 6 ml. Saturday evening I soaked pellets at pellet time to give him 5 ml of the flavoured water to drink. It seems he could drink for longer than he could eat. He pressed his mouth to the mushed pellet on my fingers but couldn't do anything more then taste it. I thought he might pass on Saturday night. I prayed it would be peaceful and without pain - that was my big fear for him. I even prepared little hideys dotted about as when my girls have died at home their instinct has been to crawl away from everyone at the end and I didn't want him to be lying out in the open.
It was very quiet downstairs this morning and the girls were hiding away. I could see George's feet in the tunnel and rested a hand on him very gently - he was on his side but still warm and breathing. He did a few quiet squeaks. I made a tea, got the girls their veggie breakfast and got George's tray set up - when he heard me sitting next to the cage he tried to squeak again which surprised me. But it felt very much like George was waiting - perhaps because he's been handled so much over the years for his various ailments. So I lifted him very gently onto his beloved snuggle sack and rested his paws on my hands. I wet my fingers to rub on his dry lips as he was beyond drinking now. Then I rubbed on a little metacam as he loves the taste. Then as I was talking to him very gently he started to twitch, and within about 5 minutes he had died. I think he didn't want to be on his own at the end. He had such trust. It's terribly hard, he was the sweetest boy. His fur still looked so shiny and his little black feet in good condition. That's what breaks you - he didn't look like an elderly pig. It was just that he had something wrong with him
I suppose if he'd pulled through this time the UTI would have returned, or stones could have started to form in his kidneys or tiny tubes (if they hadn't already) so he could have ended up in a desperate mess. He got to die at home (although I was torn for the last few days as to what was best for him). Overall he had a long and happy life I think, and he did pretty well for lady friends and scoffed a
lot of vegetation. He lived long enough to see the spring, which is what I'd hoped for him. My damp shady garden has sweet violets, ivy-leaved toadflax and new leaves on raspberry and wild strawberry which all delighted my George. There's one cheeky dandelion just outside the back door. On Thursday - his last good day - hubs sent me a message at work. He was cleaning the pigs and had piled the smelly fleeces by the open door. George loves to stink it up, and had made his way to the pile and was relaxing on it, enjoying the sun and viewing the garden. I buried him today with some of my other pigs under the wild strawberries. It's been such a hard weekend it'll take a while to get over it. I'm getting too old for all this myself. I love my George with all my heart. I first read on here that grief is love with nowhere to go. It's very true. I hope he's happy.
Goodnight my George x