Emx93
Forum Donator 2023/24
The thread that I never wanted to post.
I posted last week that I believed to have a mystery illness sweeping my piggies, as it turns out it was 3 seperate badly timed! issues which lead 3 piggies out of 4 to stop eating around the same time. Marshmallows was completely unrelated and she thankfully perked up very quickly!
Princess my palliative piggy with an inoperable abdominal tumour it turned out to sadly be that her tumour had rapidly grown causing a rather sudden decline and is now occupying a large amount of her abdominal cavity meaning she can't eat as much as there is not as much room for food. The vet said there is no more treatment or no more medicine available to help her and she is sadly loosing quality of life so urged us to take a few days to think this over and love her then consider euthanasia and had it been one of her piggies she would have already called it. We are so blessed that we have had her in our lives for 8 and a half wonderful months since adoption. We love her so very much, too much to ever let her suffer and if this thing grows any more and causes a blockage that will be excruciating for her and we've managed her pain up to now but it is at a point where there is no more we can do and must make the heartbreaking decision to let her go. We've chosen to do it on a relatively good day because that hopefully means that the last thing she will feel is love
and that is so much better than the last thing she feels being pain. I struggled with the decision so much but I have seen the day too late with my rainbow bridge cat who had lymphoma who went from jumping on the kitchen side to black sick and laying down not moving much in a matter of hours. We didn't know how to make the decision back then because we had 4 months to learn everything between adoption of our first (supposedly healthy supposedly young) cat who we found out was very poorly and very old very soon after adoption. we wanted to give him every chance but unfortunately it was a moment too late when it came to the saying 'better a week too soon than a minute too late'. I understand that saying now and I accept that this is terminal, we are out of options, the bad days are starting to outweigh the good and I've seen the bad days and I love her far too much to let her have any more. I cannot save her but I can save her from having any more bad days and make it so the last thing she feels is love. I have had a weekend of clarity where I understand it hurts so much because i love her so much and we have such an incredible bond that we crammed a lifetime of love and joy and memories into a few short months and that is truly incredible. We have an appointment booked for tomorrow at 10:30 
due to covid we cannot go in with her and we cannot bring her body home to fluffy since we want to have her cremated. This really upsets me as its something I really wanted to do. However the vet has said even though we cannot enter the building fluffy can go in with her for the appointment.
This brings me to fluffy, medical ailments have been excluded and she has started grieving as she knows what is happening because these two are so in tune and so closely bonded. She will likely be a piggy that acutely pines which considering the covid situation is a bit of a nightmare as its going to be a while before i can get her in for dating. She also has a history of fear aggression to further complicate any future bondings and had a fallout with my other two piggies previously which was so bad even being neighbours with them leads her to stop eating. Please any advice on pining when finding a new friend is restricted until after lockdown would be very helpful!
And please wish us luck as we make this incredibly hard last journey. This will be our first piggy loss. I am heartbroken, my children are heartbroken and fluffy is heartbroken but we are so incredibly lucky to have had such amazing love that it hurts this much because in the end grief is love.
I posted last week that I believed to have a mystery illness sweeping my piggies, as it turns out it was 3 seperate badly timed! issues which lead 3 piggies out of 4 to stop eating around the same time. Marshmallows was completely unrelated and she thankfully perked up very quickly!
Princess my palliative piggy with an inoperable abdominal tumour it turned out to sadly be that her tumour had rapidly grown causing a rather sudden decline and is now occupying a large amount of her abdominal cavity meaning she can't eat as much as there is not as much room for food. The vet said there is no more treatment or no more medicine available to help her and she is sadly loosing quality of life so urged us to take a few days to think this over and love her then consider euthanasia and had it been one of her piggies she would have already called it. We are so blessed that we have had her in our lives for 8 and a half wonderful months since adoption. We love her so very much, too much to ever let her suffer and if this thing grows any more and causes a blockage that will be excruciating for her and we've managed her pain up to now but it is at a point where there is no more we can do and must make the heartbreaking decision to let her go. We've chosen to do it on a relatively good day because that hopefully means that the last thing she will feel is love
and that is so much better than the last thing she feels being pain. I struggled with the decision so much but I have seen the day too late with my rainbow bridge cat who had lymphoma who went from jumping on the kitchen side to black sick and laying down not moving much in a matter of hours. We didn't know how to make the decision back then because we had 4 months to learn everything between adoption of our first (supposedly healthy supposedly young) cat who we found out was very poorly and very old very soon after adoption. we wanted to give him every chance but unfortunately it was a moment too late when it came to the saying 'better a week too soon than a minute too late'. I understand that saying now and I accept that this is terminal, we are out of options, the bad days are starting to outweigh the good and I've seen the bad days and I love her far too much to let her have any more. I cannot save her but I can save her from having any more bad days and make it so the last thing she feels is love. I have had a weekend of clarity where I understand it hurts so much because i love her so much and we have such an incredible bond that we crammed a lifetime of love and joy and memories into a few short months and that is truly incredible. We have an appointment booked for tomorrow at 10:30 due to covid we cannot go in with her and we cannot bring her body home to fluffy since we want to have her cremated. This really upsets me as its something I really wanted to do. However the vet has said even though we cannot enter the building fluffy can go in with her for the appointment.This brings me to fluffy, medical ailments have been excluded and she has started grieving as she knows what is happening because these two are so in tune and so closely bonded. She will likely be a piggy that acutely pines which considering the covid situation is a bit of a nightmare as its going to be a while before i can get her in for dating. She also has a history of fear aggression to further complicate any future bondings and had a fallout with my other two piggies previously which was so bad even being neighbours with them leads her to stop eating. Please any advice on pining when finding a new friend is restricted until after lockdown would be very helpful!
And please wish us luck as we make this incredibly hard last journey. This will be our first piggy loss. I am heartbroken, my children are heartbroken and fluffy is heartbroken but we are so incredibly lucky to have had such amazing love that it hurts this much because in the end grief is love.
How amazing that two piggies who both had trouble bonding became this closely bonded 
Big hugs to you, your family and of course Fluffy. 
❤
they haven't previously been able to be neighbours as they would even fight through the bars but like I said they have since been spayed! To neighbour them I willl have to fit the same divide in the cage that I fitted to slow bond fluuffy with Princess 
half the cage is 12 square feet will that be OK for 2 piggies as a temporary measure? Xx
