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Well done Laura and Beautifulmess. Sounds like you've both managed some great things today.

I use lists to help manage my anxiety. I write down the things I have to do each day, even if they're small things like putting the washing away, changing the bed or cleaning the guinea pig cages. It really helps to sit down at the end of the day and cross things off. I don't always get everything done and sometimes I move things from one day to the next. This has helped me realise that i do more than I realise and also that nothing bad is going to happen if I don't do something I've planned.

I don't know if you've come across this website, it was recommended by my psychiatrist although it won't suit everyone. I've only just started so I'm not sure how much help it will be yet. Maybe worth a look?
http://www.livinglifetothefull.com/index.php?section=page&page_seq=8
 
Thank you flips, I am a cronic list maker, I do them for no reason sometimes, just to list things down. Thing is, even tho I do them for day chores, I just don't get anything done, tomorrow I plan, plan being the word... to get revision done. I've 2 months until my exams.
 
I made a list this morning.
Put washing on,
post letter at post box and get electric from shop (both same area) - Done
wash dishes
empty the bin - Done
cut veg for pigs
revision
clean counters
clean the grill
clean the toilet and bath

I'm going to revise for an hour now before doing another chore. xx
 
done dishes, done the veg for the pigs and done the grill. :( I'm terrible at cleaning so this is massive for me haha :) I'm still lacking on revisions :S
 
Got everything on that list done plus 1 1/2 hours of revision.

Today I have sign on, bon marsh, bank and a new dog to walk for the cinnamon trust and I'm feeling the pressure :( I didn't get a good night sleep so when my boyfriend left for work I was feeling sick and couldn't sleep due to thoughts swirling around my head. I overslept so have to order a taxi instead of getting the bus but its the bus back. I need to go bon marsh for my mom because I promised and I need to go to the bank so he can vertifire my ID photo for my ID. ... sigh.
 
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Sounds like you're doing really well. Hope you managed the bank/ shop/ dog walking ok. It's a busy day but you'll have achieved a lot.

I am sitting here putting off going to tesco. I have to go as I've run out of veg but would really rather go back to bed as today is a struggle. 10 more minutes and then I'll go... :(
 
Did you go Flips?

Ok so, I went in the taxi, felt my anxiety rising high in the lift and waiting in the office for sign on ¬_¬ kept me waiting 10 minutes extra. I then walked into town bought my moms leggins, went the bank for my ID to be signed and then went to college to pay for my exam fees and check out which exams I'm doing. They forgot to submit me into unit 3 so I've only 1 unit to revise which is load off :)

I then caught the bus home, got littlewoods package, tried on, hated, repackaged lol then forced myself out the door to the ladies. Bobby is a lovely dog. I walked him for 3/4's of an hour. We sat and chatted, she said she had 3 walkers and 2 of them just disappeared after 1 walk ¬_¬ just because the dog is unwell and is slow... jesus people!

Anyhow, I get home and find a mountain of packages at my front door :O they weren't here at 3pm when I got back from town. They consist of a RESENT package from the body shop (I got the other package a few days ago after it went missing) so I have double package of £15 worth of products :) thats another 2 christmas present sorted and the next 6 months of toner and non tested on animals freetrade cotton pads :)

I got a sample to test from pineconeresearch (sanatry towels) but hey its Always and a free product! :) Then I got a parcel I thought was lost and me and Claire were trying to claim for off the Royal mail :)

I'm a bit buzzing atm, I feel good (I hope it lasts). Now to cleaning whilst I'm high.
 
Yes, just got back. Wasn't too bad once I got out the door. :)

You've had a great day. Well done for doing everything you'd planned and more. Fab to get freebies too. x
 
I've noticed it's worse in the morning, if I have to rush somewhere, if I'm dreading where I'm going and if I'm not busy (waiting room) I couldn't even read *** my eyes kept going fuzzy :S
 
It's fun this posting lists and writing what we got done. :)

Today: Wash dishes, sort bedroom (change bedding, hoover, dust so on), put another wash on if needed, hang clothes to dry (inside as I live 6 floors up and it's raining!), wash the bathroom and toilet, finally sort the livingroom out, make a new revision timetable now I'm only taking one exam in January, cut up pig veg and sort out the next christmas present I can afford on Saturday after buying that sofa.

xx
 
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It's fun this posting lists and writing what we got done. :)
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Hope you get lots done from your list today.

I'll join in. :)
I've revised mine as I'm not feeling very well. I've prioritised making motes on 'Little Women' and start reading 'Treasure Island' (literature course), piggy floortime, piggy sewing, washing and cooking a big batch of tomato pasta sauce for the freezer. I was going out today but the weather is so foul and my chest hurts so I'm going to do that tomorrow. I should go and make a start really.... :(|)
 
:) I haven't even eaten breakfast, I'm contenplating going back to bed >.< I'm tired, I watched a scary movie and slept so ridged all night in my boyfriends arms *** I was scared that I'm sore, achey and tired :( lol and with Africa's problems, I feel emotionally exhausted too.

Anyhow, best crack on and get breakfast into me. xxxxx
 
Don't worry that you didn't do the things on your list. They can be done another day. That's the beauty of lists... you can screw them up and start again.

I hope you're feeling better soon. You've had enough to worry about today. x
 
How have you done today? I still feel deaded, some idiots hitted on me when I got out the lift, nice to be said I'm a looker when I smile but I felt like crap, no make-up and was going into storm force 10 wind to get into the car to find out what is wrong with Africa, now I know. xx
 
Well I managed piggy floortime. I'm still cracking away at my notes as it's taken a lot longer than I thought. Have been slow partly because someone let me down about something today. It's silly because I wasn't going anywhere but they don't seem to realise/ care how much disruption it causes to take into account them coming round, then the time wasted when they don't turn up and forget to call, stress of me having to text them to be told they might come tomorrow. I'm afraid I've blown my cool and told them where to go. That's the last friend gone now... who needs them... I'm better off alone with my pigs.
So, everything else has been juggled on to tomorrow's list, which is now quite long. I'm sure I'll get eveything done before I die or else it won't matter, so never mind. One day at a time.

I hope you get some answers about Africa. Must be a huge worry for you. x
 
I'm still feeling unwell :S

Last night altho my agoraphobia was really bad I still walked Bobby for 1/2 an hour with my boyfriend. I felt really exhausted, sick and dizzy most of the day. The walk did me some good and when my boyfriend decided he was exhausted and needed sleep I wasn't ready so I cleaned up my livingroom and hall in a record 20 minutes. It's not spic and span but it's decent compared to how it normally is... lol It's mainly *** I get a new sofa tomorrow from preloved (DFS sofa, 1 year old) and I don't want my dad judging my flat cleaness lol.

Today I MUST clean the pigs out *** this room stinks. Problem with having them indoor and having 5 cages/6 pigs. I must cook and do the dishes again and sort the hall out even more.

I feel okay, I was meant to go to my moms but I felt sick when I woke up. I got an amazing gift in the post from a kind person on Swap-bot.com, it's called a RAK - Random act of kindness and well it was USA hot chocolate - Hazelnut, I ran out last night so it was like WOW :D
 
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Well I managed piggy floortime. I'm still cracking away at my notes as it's taken a lot longer than I thought. Have been slow partly because someone let me down about something today. It's silly because I wasn't going anywhere but they don't seem to realise/ care how much disruption it causes to take into account them coming round, then the time wasted when they don't turn up and forget to call, stress of me having to text them to be told they might come tomorrow. I'm afraid I've blown my cool and told them where to go. That's the last friend gone now... who needs them... I'm better off alone with my pigs.
So, everything else has been juggled on to tomorrow's list, which is now quite long. I'm sure I'll get eveything done before I die or else it won't matter, so never mind. One day at a time.

I hope you get some answers about Africa. Must be a huge worry for you. x
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I did, the vet was actually really good for once, he told me he didn't see any point in wasting my money or jabbing the pig so much he was stressed for problems he'd already investigated in his own pigs a few years ago. He told me his heart and lungs were fine and the lump was fluid and that was caused by either liver or kidney failure and even if we forked out a shed load to find out which, it wouldn't save him. :( so I hope I have him over Christmas at least. x
 
I'm sorry that the news isn't better for Africa. Must be very difficult for you. I hope you can keep him comfy for some time yet.

Hope you're feeling a bit better this evening. xx>>>
 
Agaraphobia seems to come and go,it seems to be an indicator of general anxiety.Few people who have had ag. are every really sure that it has gone.Try to tackle your general anxiousness,because it becomes a viscious circle. You feel anxious and panicky when you go out,and then you feel more anxious because you cant go out . One small step at a time.Whatever efforts you make to do things can be very exhuasting because of your fear of being overcome with panic.Get plenty of sleep and try to set yourself a small goal every day. The less you go out ,the less you will be able to go.Reward yourself with something you really enjoy,and remember you are not alone in this.Lots of people suffer too and many hide it as best they can.
Wishing you all the best eveyone deserves to be happy ,but happiness means different things ti different people.So whatever makes you happy .do it.
 
By the way I found it helps if your mind is occupied and I learnt a couple of longish poems to say whenever I start to feel uncomfortable,it does help to calm me down I never get any sort of panic feelings when I am driving.I think that is because my mind is concentrating on the road.

I know that you are more affected than me and I hope that you soon manage to get things under control you will be a stronger person because of your trouble.
 
He's still doing okay today, active, alert, eating, pooping (formed poops now), lump went smaller yesterday and is bigger today, his left foot is massive. He's walking fine, cleaning himself, drinking excess but not more than usual in my mind. I'll post some pictures I took of him today with me :) <3

Went to work, had a bit of anxiety before started, did well, got new sofa, felt sick *** we had to walk up 6 floors with it and then it wouldn't go round the corner, but we pushed it broke a doorframe and it did (the doorframeisn't mine) lol anyways so new sofa, was too late to walk my other dog though.

xxxxx
 
He's still doing okay today, active, alert, eating, pooping (formed poops now), lump went smaller yesterday and is bigger today, his left foot is massive. He's walking fine, cleaning himself, drinking excess but not more than usual in my mind. I'll post some pictures I took of him today with me :) <3

Went to work, had a bit of anxiety before started, did well, got new sofa, felt sick *** we had to walk up 6 floors with it and then it wouldn't go round the corner, but we pushed it broke a doorframe and it did (the doorframeisn't mine) lol anyways so new sofa, was too late to walk my other dog though.

xxxxx
 
Hi all, hope things are getting easier for you all :)

I wanted to ask you about exercise, I used to run most days and it kept me fit and healthy. Since I felt depressed and down exercise has been harder to do, I know it helps improve mood etc, but if you can't get out of the house to do anything, as I am some days, what do you do?!
 
I own a wii fit, with the games wii sport, wii fit plus, ea active and just dance. I'm afraid I'm oppisite to most people though, exercise makes me depressed lol, I don't get why I don't get this big happy rush scientists say yu should. My aim for fitness is to go jogging actually. I love jogging on the wii, I admit its on the spot but it's decent and I managed to expand my level from finding it hard to do 2 minutes to just sailing through it all. Otherwise, yoga books, exercise dvd's, I do an army one thats good. :)
 
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