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lilgalnatalie
I'm so depressed latelty i feel like just stabbing myself over and over. i wish i was a guinea pig. ;D
no but no smiley faces involved in this, just sad ones
I feel like i have been so betrayed by my best best friend in my whole life.
She comes online, and my friend has gone home that came over, that she dont like. I took a
picuture of me and my friend on my webcam, when she was over and put it has my display picture on msn.
so my best best friend start going
"hahahahaha its fatty!"
so i go "leave her alone shes my mate"
and she goes "well i still dont like, her and she's still fat."
And it kicks off from there, we had a huge row over msn, and we're not speaking now.
So then depressed and annoyed over that, a lad from scouts i no decided to pick at me too.
He's been blocking me and telling me to go away, so like the doormat i am, i ignored him.
But today, after this, i cant take no more. so he goes
Lad: "hi you blocked me!"
me:"no."
Lad."go away."
Me:"what have i done."
Lad:"nothing."
Me:"so you're having ago at me for no reason just for the crack of it?"
Lad:"yh"
Me:"your sick."
Lad: "yep." blocks me....
Now they're was a tiny bit of happiness left inside of me, that i could pull myself
back on my feet left, but that was detroyed to.
I am so anooyed now, its all over my msn name.
so my friend asks me whats wrong,
i no him very well, and whenever i have a problem
he'll hav ago at the person, even though i told him not to.
so i told him i only speak 2 sum1 not on msn.
so he says ok.
then my other friend who does not live in coventry comes online.
and i tell him what has happened. because who does not no the people
who listens, so i put on my msn thanking him for doing that
my other friend is raging and says he hates me, for not tellin him,
and sayin i did not want to speak 2 sum1 on msn, but i go and does this.
i get louds of angry smileys and then he blocks me.
and that tiny bit left to think 'life is good i can get over this' has vanished.
at times like this is when i really need Coco. she was so special and cheered me up.
but now shes when to the bridge, i cannot get her :'(
at the moment i need a break, from school, from coventry, and from msn, no commuincation with anyone, but my dad
at school I'm getting grief
me and my dad argued last night, and with the stress i nearly ran away, causing him a panick attack and he couldn't breath and nearly died.
the year head dropping me in my gsce papers.
my mum is tryin 2 get custody off me.
i just wish i could get on a plane to australia and never come back, but thats in the summer.
i need to calm myself down, the stress is causing pains in my chest. it hurts not to bad
but i can feel my breathing beginning to hurt, and my left arm to weaken.
i betta finsihed this message now.
no but no smiley faces involved in this, just sad ones
I feel like i have been so betrayed by my best best friend in my whole life.
She comes online, and my friend has gone home that came over, that she dont like. I took a
picuture of me and my friend on my webcam, when she was over and put it has my display picture on msn.
so my best best friend start going
"hahahahaha its fatty!"
so i go "leave her alone shes my mate"
and she goes "well i still dont like, her and she's still fat."
And it kicks off from there, we had a huge row over msn, and we're not speaking now.
So then depressed and annoyed over that, a lad from scouts i no decided to pick at me too.
He's been blocking me and telling me to go away, so like the doormat i am, i ignored him.
But today, after this, i cant take no more. so he goes
Lad: "hi you blocked me!"
me:"no."
Lad."go away."
Me:"what have i done."
Lad:"nothing."
Me:"so you're having ago at me for no reason just for the crack of it?"
Lad:"yh"
Me:"your sick."
Lad: "yep." blocks me....
Now they're was a tiny bit of happiness left inside of me, that i could pull myself
back on my feet left, but that was detroyed to.
I am so anooyed now, its all over my msn name.
so my friend asks me whats wrong,
i no him very well, and whenever i have a problem
he'll hav ago at the person, even though i told him not to.
so i told him i only speak 2 sum1 not on msn.
so he says ok.
then my other friend who does not live in coventry comes online.
and i tell him what has happened. because who does not no the people
who listens, so i put on my msn thanking him for doing that
my other friend is raging and says he hates me, for not tellin him,
and sayin i did not want to speak 2 sum1 on msn, but i go and does this.
i get louds of angry smileys and then he blocks me.
and that tiny bit left to think 'life is good i can get over this' has vanished.
at times like this is when i really need Coco. she was so special and cheered me up.
but now shes when to the bridge, i cannot get her :'(
at the moment i need a break, from school, from coventry, and from msn, no commuincation with anyone, but my dad
at school I'm getting grief
me and my dad argued last night, and with the stress i nearly ran away, causing him a panick attack and he couldn't breath and nearly died.
the year head dropping me in my gsce papers.
my mum is tryin 2 get custody off me.
i just wish i could get on a plane to australia and never come back, but thats in the summer.
i need to calm myself down, the stress is causing pains in my chest. it hurts not to bad
but i can feel my breathing beginning to hurt, and my left arm to weaken.
i betta finsihed this message now.