Popcorns & Wheeks
Teenage Guinea Pig
Hi all, I am new to the site and was the proud mummy of 5 wonderful little piggies until recently, I am now a devastated mummy to just 4. I unfortunately lost one of my sows, my beautiful Susie only 48 hours ago after she had surgery, a spay to be precise. I recently had all 4 of my sows spayed and my little boy neutered due to wanting to prevent health issues and so my boy could join his family. The first 4 procedures went well, apart from my boy developing absesses post surgery and having to undergo surgery again, fingers crossed he will now be okay. My little Susie only 2 years old was last to undergo her spay, the poor girl suffered with respiratory issues since birth, stasis last year and was troubled with cysts and a heart murmur, we nearly lost her a year ago due to her ill health. She was in and out of vets like a yoyo. The vet informed us she had a cyst pressing onto her lungs after the surgery, we then brought her home and unfortunately she passed in my partners arms, she began having some sort of seizure before we got chance to leave for the vets, she died at 1:30am the morning after her surgery. After informing the vet she said it could have been because she was overweight and now I feel this is all my fault for feeding her too much of her favorite treats. This has completely broken me and my partner and her beloved cage mate Ruby.
The guilt I am feeling is killing me. I am a huge sufferer of anxiety/ocd and have been struggling for the last 6 weeks, following a recent eviction and moving into a new property. Due to this, I have been a mess, constantly crying, screaming and had conflict with my partner. I didn't spend a lot of time with my Susie or the other piggies for all those weeks due to being a depressive mess. I am now feeling like this outcome is all my fault, that somehow my erratic and depressive behavior has weakened her and she has died because of my actions. I also feel that if I hadn't put her through the surgery this wouldn't have happened and I shouldnt have fed her as much as I did. When we brought her home she was so lethargic however, all my piggies were so I really didn't recognize that she was struggling, me and partner put it down to the anesthetic. I wish I could have done something more for her, spent more time with her and not put her through surgery. It has been 48 hours and we cannot stop crying, can't eat or sleep. I can't get those last moments and the guilt out of my head. I feel I will never forgive myself for this. She was so happy so why did I have to put her through the op. All I want is that time back that I selfishly wasted. She is now in a box on my fireplace instead of in my arms where she belongs.
The guilt I am feeling is killing me. I am a huge sufferer of anxiety/ocd and have been struggling for the last 6 weeks, following a recent eviction and moving into a new property. Due to this, I have been a mess, constantly crying, screaming and had conflict with my partner. I didn't spend a lot of time with my Susie or the other piggies for all those weeks due to being a depressive mess. I am now feeling like this outcome is all my fault, that somehow my erratic and depressive behavior has weakened her and she has died because of my actions. I also feel that if I hadn't put her through the surgery this wouldn't have happened and I shouldnt have fed her as much as I did. When we brought her home she was so lethargic however, all my piggies were so I really didn't recognize that she was struggling, me and partner put it down to the anesthetic. I wish I could have done something more for her, spent more time with her and not put her through surgery. It has been 48 hours and we cannot stop crying, can't eat or sleep. I can't get those last moments and the guilt out of my head. I feel I will never forgive myself for this. She was so happy so why did I have to put her through the op. All I want is that time back that I selfishly wasted. She is now in a box on my fireplace instead of in my arms where she belongs.
Please don’t blame yourself, you gave her the chance of a more healthier life, sadly sometimes things don’t go to plan. Susie had quite a few problems and all operations do carry risks. You Have just been very unlucky in Susie’s case and that’s something no one can predict.The main thing she was loved and cared for and she will have known so don’t blame yourself, you did your very best for her.
