Ramble

[piggycuddler_44]

This is going to be a bit of a ramble, so apologies about that in advance. My gorgeous little pig Porkle, passed away from a lung growth 1.5 months ago. He was only 1 and a half. I adopted him when he was 6 months old, and we learnt and grew together so much, he was my first pig. Anyway, he left behind his little buddy Benji. I had a bit of a existential crisis, and contemplated for 2 weeks about whether to find a new home for Benji, because losing pigs is so hard, but in the end, I decided to adopt another pig. I spent the last 2 weeks filling out applications. Fast forward to yesterday. I travelled to this really trashy rescue, and was given a pig by the lady who runs the place, who insisted the pig was healthy and 7 months old. I took him home and then came to my senses, and realised he wasn't healthy, was underweight, and too young. I took him back today. I have reached inquired with a better rescue and will start working to adopt a suitable pig.

So what I'm trying to say is that I feel like I've failed Benji. He is alone again, and has been for too long. I feel so lost without Porkle. Everything was so perfect and my pig family was so right when he was here. I miss him so much and I just want to hold him again. He has been cremated, and I'm struggling with the fact that he's just a pile of ash now.

I'm really sorry for the massive word dump, I just needed to share.

 

[Merab]

We’re here to be dumped on.
It’s important that you can offload with people who understand how devastating it can be to lose a beloved piggy.

Please don’t beat yourself up.
You are doing everything possible for Benji.
If he’s eating well and not acutely pining he’ll be fine for a few weeks.

Although we are pro rescue sometimes it is not always possible to find a rescue piggy, and if Benji’s need for a companion becomes critical then you may have to go to a pet shop.
This is what I did when my sow Merab was left alone and I lived nowhere near a rescue at that time.

Be gentle with yourself as you grieve.

Have a browse through the bereavement threads as there’s some helpful resources there.
Someone whose tech skills are greater than mine will add links for you.