Hello, I'm new here so I apologize if I put this in the wrong category, however I do need help. 10 months ago my guinea pig coffee passed away on March 29th. I had school that day and after school I went over to a friend's house for a couple hours and when I got back that same night I found her laying still..Before I went to school and the friend's house I made sure her water was filled, she had food and that her cage was clean. After that, while I was gone my mother would check up on her through the day and made sure she still had what she needed. My mother said that coffee was doing well the whole day, she was making the happy sounds she usually makes and popcorn's, overall just doing great. It was confusing as to why she passed. When I picked her up so I could do a burial there was a strange clear liquid coming out of her ears? I wasn't sure what it was and to this day I'm still confused, I blame myself for not taking care of her or neglecting her. I got her when I was in my worse place in life but she helped me get through it and I always tried my best to take care of her. I feel like it was all my fault and that I could've done better for her and maybe she would still be squeaking in the middle of the night wanting my attention.
She was the only one I had, I'm aware you're supposed to get another one or more so they don't get lonely but at the time I was trying to get more money for more space and for another one. However that never ended up working out..
Lately I've been thinking about getting another guinea pig, two this time, however I'm scared to. I'm worried that if I do get another one I'm only going to be replacing my Coffee. I feel like I shouldn't get another one because it wouldn't be fair to her if I was a horrible owner, I'm always thinking about it.."It wouldn't be fair if I treated the other ones better when I didn't treat her better first" I'm scared that's gonna be the case but I don't know if I'm overthinking it. I love them, but I'm still hurt that my first baby passed away.
She was the only one I had, I'm aware you're supposed to get another one or more so they don't get lonely but at the time I was trying to get more money for more space and for another one. However that never ended up working out..
Lately I've been thinking about getting another guinea pig, two this time, however I'm scared to. I'm worried that if I do get another one I'm only going to be replacing my Coffee. I feel like I shouldn't get another one because it wouldn't be fair to her if I was a horrible owner, I'm always thinking about it.."It wouldn't be fair if I treated the other ones better when I didn't treat her better first" I'm scared that's gonna be the case but I don't know if I'm overthinking it. I love them, but I'm still hurt that my first baby passed away.