Emotional Meltdown

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I have had such a crappy day. The things I wanted to get sorted & done by mid-day weren't even done by 6pm. Everything I did do lead onto further stuff needing to be done then & there. My daughter has turned into a demanding little s*** & insists on saying 'mum' just for the hell of it which has in the end made me wince every time she says it - which in turn makes me feel like a really horrible person. If i say 'Don't do this' she goes & does it. But when I'm close to losing the plot she says 'I love you', so she must know I'm on the edge.

The piggies are all falling out. Wiggy & Rusty never made it it Weymouth which has made me even more f****d off because they've been carted from pillar to post. (Not the womans fault because her elderly mother had a suspected heart attack while she was in Nottingham so couldn't get back to Weymouth when first arranged). But never the less its still pissed me off knowing that they could have stayed with Pumpkinpiggie & not been arsed around.

I trod on the kitten by accident & I got my leg ripped to bits & its all bleeding under the skin & I have a huge bubble of blood waiting to pop in the worst bit. So no doubt I will now need a tetanus injection.

I ended up just standing in the middle of the room not being able to move. I used to be like this when I was really down. I would just get stuck in places & not be able to move at all! I need to be carted off for some R&R. It doesn't help the fact that my daughter is getting up at about 5:30am everyday. Even if I keep her up really late she still gets up at this time. She hasn't slept in the day for years so its not like she is getting too much sleep.

I just feel like curling up & sleeping for an incredibly long time- but now feel much better for ranting here!
 
Big hugs to you hun ((hugs)) and definetely get your leg looked at.

Take care,

Clare xx
 
Hils get your ass over to our house somehow,we'll have a skip rat attack and some fun if itll help O0

Sars and me will be in tomm so come on over
 
awww Hils sorry to hear you've had a bad day, my living room is upside down hubby decieded as we have a new sofa coming at weekend to re paint the walls so curtains down need washing my sons having our old sofa so all cushion covers off and washed dried put back on pictures on the wall wiped over etc etc you know what its like he only had half a day off, and i started feeling queasy maybe the paint but felt so sick and had a pain in chest ugh, so take heart sweetie I know how tired you must be feeling, slip your daughter a gin lol of course I'm joking, but how tempting when you are so tired with loss of sleep :'( bet you could cry with tiredness I do feel sorry for you they say loss of sleep is a torture too true, sweet dreams tonight :-*
 
Yes that's right in some countries they use it as a form of torture :o Sorry you're feeling like this Hils, having kids can be a very draining business, especially when they are early birds, and you yourself are feeling so tired you could just cry. Don't be to hard on yourself for feeling like you are, it's normal to feel that way, no matter how much you love them ;) And you have a great Mum and sister, that will help pick you up again :)

((((( hugs ))))) :-* :-* :-* :-*
 
Cheers guys. Just one bitch of a day caught me off guard for no reason. Feeling a bit better now. I have these grand ideas which are far fetched especially with a 4yr old in tow & wonder why I get nothing finished time & time again! I just need to get in a position where I can take the day off & do nothing. But I'm not that type of person - might fall apart if I stop!
 
Must be in the air DD I hope tomorrow is better for you!
I've taken some Nytol & have ear plugs at the ready. Even the ear plugs have taken up time because I have really small ear holes & I have to doctor them to get them to fit!
 
Poor you, its awful being that tired and having such a bad day! You are not alone! It IS something in the air - I have had a dreadful time at work and was dragged up in front of a disciplinary meeting yesterday - because my boss basically doesn't know what I do and has been given a bollocking by those at the top which he takes out on me- its all been chucked out by HR, no action will be taken etc etc, I've been totally cleared and the guy I work with came into the disciplinary with me to say I was the stongest one there and had turned things around so that my project was now th emost successful etc etc, but why did it have to come to that? I don't understand why i am being singled out when I work the hardest, the longest hours and achieve the most ... is it because I am the only female I wonder.. Anyway, even though it has all been cleared up, I still feel awful, I feel ashamded that they could think that of me and have been sick at work every day this week with worry.

Roll on spring and a bit of sunshine - should cheer us all up a bit!

Hope you feel a bit better Hils - things won't seem so bad tomorrow. Sometimes i have days when I get loads done, and other days I feel like I am wading through mud and just can't seem to get going! Get yourself to bed with a trashy novel!

PS sorry about the kitten - I trod on a frog this weekend in the garden - it gave a little squeak and then literally "croaked" - I nearly cried!
 
I bet that they are threatened by you. I hate office politics sends a shiver down my spine thinking about it - I don't envy you but well done for getting it sorted.

I really thought I had broken the kittens leg but she's absolutely fine she just hobbled for about 20 secs, now she's running around like a nutter.
I think that I'm a perfectionist - if I set myself up to clean out the pigs for example - I have it in my head that they all have to get done. Not letting myself just do the worst ones & leaving the others till the next day. Also I am so desperate to be a good mum that I get hung up over a bad day with sprog. I should just let it go. There are other things that are going on that I can't really write about - but just to give you an idea, certain people turn up here 'off their face seeing things x8)' which really doesn't help my sanity!

I suppose in reality I'm doing pretty well all things considered!
 
Oh no get your self over here tomorrow. I will make sure my boys wear that daughter of yours out for you. Sounds like your having a right time of it.
 
Thanks Hils. I had a good whinge to my mum tonight, said I hope this guy's w*lly shrivels up and drops off! >:D

I bet you are a fab mum too - anyone that worries and cares as much as you do must be! I can't imagine coping with kids plus housework plus piggies plus work and eveyrthing else, I think I'd be a total wreck.


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aww you might be setting oyurself too high a goal years ago I had 5 kids 2 under 3 and 3 of them with ADHD I worked all day like a trogan I had to prove to everyone that I could do it all and I did but look at me now i have so many health problems my dr says I have literally worn myself out, we had a 3 storey house all 6 bed were washed dried and re made all floors hoovered and dusted meals cooked wonderful elaborate cakes baked get the picture I often felt like collapsing then I had to make time for the kids to prove to my evil mother in law that I could cope ( still hate her even though shes dead) she would ridicule me all the time and became a real problem in my life like your 98) problem, let him learn the hard way what hes lost and ignore him, if you can :tickedoff:
I learnt too late my health suffered please take care of yourself, your hoovering can wait just play for an hour with your darling little girl and sod the housework they are only little once, night night, go count pigs jumping the fence, sweet dreams ^-^
 
Hils i'm sorry to hear you've had such a of a day :(

You probably did the best thing and got on here and had a good yak with everyone, best medicine is to talk it out :)

Sending you lots of hugs from me and Duke's sending piggie kisses too :smitten: :smitten:
 
hey hils the house work will be there tomorrow and the day after :D so let it wait, it really isn't important. we all feel guilty about what we say and do to our kids but that is being a parent ;D your not a bad mother just human( i think) >:D

some times i just go and have a bath put on the music have a good cry and moan to myself and then get right back up and fight on. never bottle stuff up, that's what destroys you.................

when she says she loves you that's the most precious gift you will ever have and the best feeling in the world, nothing else in the world matters apart from the love you share (ooooops don't forget the piggies) :smitten: so sod everything else that's my attitude.

you'll have to learn to grab sleep when ever you can :-\ my lad went 6 months not sleeping, we were lucky if we got an hour a night, he would sleepwalk, scream, come into my room crying and up til recently he had a major problem with night time and closing his eyes. in the end i would just let him stay up and over time things have improved. some times he doesn't go to bed till 3/4 but he's happier now and learning to cope and that is all that matters ................

kick back girl and relax, ;D
 
Morning hils hope you got a good nights sleep and are feeling a little better today.

What is it with us mums, we try to be superwomen and then wonder why we are knackered all the time! If you are the type of person who is always on the go it is very had to take some "me time" - been there done that! The others are right, your little one won't stay little for long, so enjoy some playtime and blow the housework etc (and yes, I know that is easier said than done when you are a perfectionist!). You sound just like me!

Hope today is heaps better. Big hugs. xx
 
You guys are fab O0 I really don't know how some of you do it (Michelle). I have psorasis on my scalp & know when things are tough becuase of how bad that is - I have blood running down my neck this morning & my white pillow cases are now red! I like what you said about the house work Tawny - you only need to fart in this place & its ditched again!
I'm just thinking about getting out the house & what I can do today - the pigs are ok, 1 cage niffs a bit so I'll quickly do that & set my self just 10 mins to do it, then even if its not disinfected & scrubbed I'll just put clean bedding back in. See that says it all - I can't just clean out a cage I have to disinfect it too!

I actually had a semi decent night with madam - she got up at 7am :D & I told her I was going to stay in bed for a bit longer & I actually fell back to sleep. I did get a drink ready for her lastnight & cereal ready so she only needed to pour milk over it. I think I'll be doing this again!

I'm going to nip & see Sars & Sehnschut which'll be good. Hope all you guys have a good day

Hx
 
Go for it hils! Glad you had a better night. Go do the minimum needed to make the piggies comfortable for the day and then get out and enjoy yourself ;)
 
Only just come on.

I do hope things are a bit better today, darling.

thinking of you xx
 
hopefully me and the Sarsyfluff cheered you up a bit Hils ;)
aww and you forgot to take Angel with you ;D
 
Yup you both did thank you very much! There would be no discreet pignapping with her - I would need a wheel barrow to get her out!
 
hils78 said:
Yup you both did thank you very much! There would be no discreet pignapping with her - I would need a wheel barrow to get her out!
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hahah I know what you mean ( I'm saying nothing about the neighbour having a wheelbarrow then )
 
Hey how are you feeling today? anybetter. I have a glass of wine tonight and chill out >:D
 
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