ConfusedMamapig
New Born Pup
I need some advice. Sorry in advance for the long rambling post. I am sat here covered as usual in critical care, wondering if I am doing the right thing. Our little piggie Fluffy will, I think, be making a journey across the rainbow bridge sometime but I am struggling with making the right decision about when to let him go. Since the start of October he has been sustained with critical care feeds (bar some grass and a few veggies which he still chomps through). For over two months we have religiously been putting 100-125ml of CC into him a day across 4 or 5 feeds just to maintain his weight, while juggling family life, kids, jobs etc and for the short term this has been ok (although he has still probably lost 100g in this time). He has been diagnosed with two small bladder stones and also x ray / bloods in early Oct showed crystallisation of the kidneys and reduced kidney function. He's only just over a year old. The vet explained this would be terminal and to take him home and give him lots of love until the time came. I should say at the same time in Oct he also had an infection which made him completely miserable. This cleared up with baytril. The problem I have is that we love him to bits and his quality of life at the moment is ok (well, its so much better than when the infection was raging). He's on metacam twice daily - but he's still rumblestrutting around, getting excited about grass (even though he can't seem to gain weight). He's not ill enough for me to pts but without a clear end point I am not sure how much longer we can keep rearranging our lives around his feeding pattern...its all consuming. I know that sounds awful but we can't go anywhere as a family for more than 4 hours and if we go away one of us has to stay behind. As I said for a couple of months it was totally fine. Does anyone have any experience of crystals on the kidney and can give me some idea as to the rate of decline? I hope I don't sound heartless trying to work out where we are on the end of life continum, even writing this post feels disrespectful to dear little Fluffs. He weighs about 900g now (down from 1.15 originally). He drinks massively, which I believe is a sign of progressing kidney disease. As I said he still gets excited for veggies, nuggets, even hay but cannot eat anywhere near enough to sustain himself. He's not as spritly as he was, looks a bit stiff but definitely is not sat looking dejected all the time. I can't pts at the moment with his eyes still bright but I also can't do this indefinitely...any words of wisdom...before I start the next feed...