lucyinthesky.withdiamonds
New Born Pup
Hello everybody! 1 and a half weeks ago I discovered a big lump under my guinea pig Lucy's chin. Her hair is big, being an abyssinyan, and it wasnt visible, but i felt it when a picked her up . În 20 minutes time I was at the vet with her because I was concerned. They checked for abcces, but wasnt the case, so they told me that surgery is needed.( I need to mention that Lucy is a very very playful ,food loving, courageous guinea pig. Very energetic, roaming free in the house, chasing us ,wheeking for food). I went with her for surgery 4 days later ,last monday, and they said that an hemorage occured after surgery ,but was fine eventually. Now I think she might be dying. I think her body is shutting down, and I tried everything since I came back home with her. She didnt want to eat, drink, doesnt poo or pee anymore, is very lethargic, and her breath is not well. Ofc I syringe fed her, and administered water ,vitamin C, probiotics, but with no results. I called the vet 2 times for advice since then, and yesterday I went back to the emergency vet, and they rehydrated her ,administered medicine for potential pain, I bought everything for her recovery ,but her health only went downhill .
Now, my confession is... I feel guilty for taking her to have surgery. I feel like I ruined her life.. like i stole her happy life away from her. The morning before surgery she only wanted to play and eat, and was happy. I feel like I betrayed her and that I dont deserve her love and friendship. I had her for almost 2 years. She is just the best ,and offered me and my family the laughs of our lives and we love her very much.
Probably i am not making much sense right now ,but I wish I didnt feel that lump...
But if I would have felt that lump and didnt go to vet with her, then I would have felt guilty for not seeking medical advice. She was such a happy and energetic piggy, and yesterday I was happy she moved around a bit.. I can only doubt my decision, and I keep thinking what would have happened if I never would have felt that lump. I feel that she was in danger anyway because it was right under her chin. And If the vet said she needed surgery.. I mean, he is a doctor . Its only logical that he knows better than me.
But I feel like I am the worst friend to her..
Now, my confession is... I feel guilty for taking her to have surgery. I feel like I ruined her life.. like i stole her happy life away from her. The morning before surgery she only wanted to play and eat, and was happy. I feel like I betrayed her and that I dont deserve her love and friendship. I had her for almost 2 years. She is just the best ,and offered me and my family the laughs of our lives and we love her very much.
Probably i am not making much sense right now ,but I wish I didnt feel that lump...
But if I would have felt that lump and didnt go to vet with her, then I would have felt guilty for not seeking medical advice. She was such a happy and energetic piggy, and yesterday I was happy she moved around a bit.. I can only doubt my decision, and I keep thinking what would have happened if I never would have felt that lump. I feel that she was in danger anyway because it was right under her chin. And If the vet said she needed surgery.. I mean, he is a doctor . Its only logical that he knows better than me.
But I feel like I am the worst friend to her..
. Please don’t feel guilty.
unfortunately Lucy passed away a few hours after my post. I am still heartbroken ,but these words are really helpful, as I am always thinking about her 
