Bethan
Forum Donator 2023/24
Hi everyone,
I’m sort of new here - I joined back in 2018, a few months after I had adopted my piggies Dylan and Indiana. I’ve been a lurker ever since and always found the forum so helpful but only ever posted once to introduce my boys!
I’m devastated to say that my gorgeous boy Indiana was officially diagnosed with lymphoma on 20th May and passed away on 13th June. I’m heartbroken beyond words. He was such a light in my life and the biggest character. I love him so much and miss him so badly already.
To make it worse, I’ve just put Dylan to bed alone for the first time ever and I’m getting so upset thinking of him sleeping alone. I’ve watched the “pig cam” we have set up in their bedroom pretty constantly since and he seems okay, but he must be feeling sad. They were not litter mates but bonded by the rescue, so lived together for almost 5 years.
My current dilemma is that I hadn’t really intended to adopt any more pigs, to be truthful. It’s currently pretty difficult to get vets appointments locally, and most local vets admit to not knowing an awful lot about piggies. There are some specialists just within an hour of us, but again, getting appointments promptly has been a struggle - fitting this in around work is another struggle on top. I wish these weren’t concerns, but after having a pretty tough time getting Indy diagnosed in the first place, and having had some negative experience with one of the specialist / exotic vets and one of my hamsters back last year, I feel horrendous guilt that I cannot keep my babies safe and well if I can’t get reliable vet care promptly. I also don’t know how to cope with this grief over and over again. It feels as though my heart is in pieces.
Equally, I have loved being a pig Mam to Indy, and love Dylan with my whole heart - I don’t want him to ever feel sad or lonely.
Sorry for the long post. I don’t know what to do or how to feel and I guess I’m just looking for support / opinions from likeminded people.
To my cheeky baby, my beautiful little boy Indiana - Mammy loves and misses you so so much. I already cannot wait until we meet again
I’m sort of new here - I joined back in 2018, a few months after I had adopted my piggies Dylan and Indiana. I’ve been a lurker ever since and always found the forum so helpful but only ever posted once to introduce my boys!
I’m devastated to say that my gorgeous boy Indiana was officially diagnosed with lymphoma on 20th May and passed away on 13th June. I’m heartbroken beyond words. He was such a light in my life and the biggest character. I love him so much and miss him so badly already.
To make it worse, I’ve just put Dylan to bed alone for the first time ever and I’m getting so upset thinking of him sleeping alone. I’ve watched the “pig cam” we have set up in their bedroom pretty constantly since and he seems okay, but he must be feeling sad. They were not litter mates but bonded by the rescue, so lived together for almost 5 years.
My current dilemma is that I hadn’t really intended to adopt any more pigs, to be truthful. It’s currently pretty difficult to get vets appointments locally, and most local vets admit to not knowing an awful lot about piggies. There are some specialists just within an hour of us, but again, getting appointments promptly has been a struggle - fitting this in around work is another struggle on top. I wish these weren’t concerns, but after having a pretty tough time getting Indy diagnosed in the first place, and having had some negative experience with one of the specialist / exotic vets and one of my hamsters back last year, I feel horrendous guilt that I cannot keep my babies safe and well if I can’t get reliable vet care promptly. I also don’t know how to cope with this grief over and over again. It feels as though my heart is in pieces.
Equally, I have loved being a pig Mam to Indy, and love Dylan with my whole heart - I don’t want him to ever feel sad or lonely.
Sorry for the long post. I don’t know what to do or how to feel and I guess I’m just looking for support / opinions from likeminded people.
To my cheeky baby, my beautiful little boy Indiana - Mammy loves and misses you so so much. I already cannot wait until we meet again
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